So as Valentine's Day is commencing [TG], I am sitting in WeWork [City Center] reflecting on some odd feelings that just spurted in my whole chest. I've also been wanting to relaunch my blog but just didn't have the courage to release a post that I thought was worthy of ya'll reading but whatever. Here we go.
I woke up feeling ready for today, fresh off vacationing in Cabo with a bunch of exciting emails about the Women In Music Festival + Red Corvette booking calls scheduled. Worked out, ate like 3 meals, and then it hit me as I was getting dressed for my evening work date with the ladies of Stage 30 BAMMM I started to feel all sad and lonely and shit. Not because I am not happy with being single but because I am confused to how all of these people all of sudden have boyfriends/girlfriends and are all in love all of sudden. I know it's not really my business but how did a lot of my peers become so romantic and clever with their love posts while I am posting myself in Cabo holding a bottle of Lambrusco in one hand and Cooks Brut Champagne in the other. Where did I go wrong with not having someone to shoutout on V-Day? How do I throw an R&B party every month while still not knowing how to lock in a date? lol [these thoughts immediately left my brain as I started to write this post]
Don't get me wrong. I actually am a hopeless romantic and read/talk with friends about LOVE all the time because I want to personally get better at love. I don't feel like I've loved, cared, or have been appreciated by someone that I like of the opposite sex me since I was 16 years old. I am always journaling trying to find answers on how to like/love and I fail at it all the time. I don't want to shut down on some fuh dudes and relationships stuff but I do try to be more cautious because I am not the "love 'em and leave 'em" type no more. Lil baby be wanting some steady lovin'. Ugh
With all that said, look out for more journal entries about managing myself + festival planning, DJ mixes/playlists, recipes, and self-care blog posts going forward. I am not going to over work myself by promising daily posts but am pushing to post weekly.